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Powell church hears of former porn star's return to faith

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Crissy Moran, star of more than 40 pornographic films, spoke about her escape from the industry and return to her faith Sunday, March 10, at Beautiful Savior Lutheran Church in Powell.
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Crissy Moran grew up in a religious household.

Her family went to church. Her dad, whom Moran said was a violent alcoholic, was so zealous, his preaching sometimes led to bar fights.

"At the age of 11, I became a Christian. I gave my heart to Jesus," Moran said. "I knew who he was and I believed in him with all my heart."

She wasn't popular or pretty. At school, she wore hand-me-down clothes. Older boys picked on her.

No one would have guessed that by her late 20s she would be one of the most popular names in pornography.

It wasn't until she rediscovered her religious roots that she said she was able to break free of an industry that left her in a cycle of exploitation and abuse.

Moran shared her story March 10 at Beautiful Savior Lutheran Church in Powell.

Now 37, Moran retired from pornography in 2006.

She said she never wanted to be in porn. She traces her six-year career to her troubled childhood.

Her father was abusive, and she repeatedly was molested by a baby sitter, she said.

"I learned to cope with that by checking out and disassociating. That's how I dealt with everything," Moran said.

When she was 17, the boys at school started to notice her, she said. From that point forward, she said, she craved the attention of men.

"I started to realize that the things I didn't have growing up, the love and validation, I felt with them," she said.

When she discovered online modeling websites, where pretty women were paid to don luxurious designer clothing, Moran was captivated. When she submitted several photos of herself, the response was nearly instantaneous.

She was convinced to give porn a try and eventually moved to California, where she launched her career.

She was an instant hit. In six years, she starred in more than 40 mainstream pornographic films and made more than $15,000 a month.

But behind the scenes, her life had spiraled out of control. Moran was a serial dater, drifting from one abusive relationship to the next.

One boyfriend raped her, beat her and assumed complete control of her finances, she said.

When she met a man who showed her kindness and respect -- and reintroduced her to her childhood faith -- she swore off pornography, fled to Jacksonville, Fla., and forfeited her income.

"God had a different plan for what I was supposed to do with my life," Moran said.

Today, she's engaged to be married and is speaking out against the porn industry alongside Treasures, a California-based nonprofit group that works to provide support, counseling and resources for women working in the sex industry.

Emily Hibard, a representative of Treasures, organized Moran's speaking engagement.

Hibard said her group is dedicated to helping actresses, exotic dancers and other women who fell into the sex industry after experiencing abuse.

"The mission is not necessarily to get women out of the business, but it's to love on them where they are, and that usually changes them from the inside out," she said.

Hibard said her group works to overcome taboos and recognizes that the women it works with have complicated pasts.

"Ten years ago, the idea that good girls go into strip clubs didn't exist," she said.

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